It's always filled with a bit of melancholy. The weekend isn't just winding down, it's pretty much over. And that makes me sad. When did I become a girl who works all week to live for the weekends? This is SO not the way I want to spend my life. Seems like a pathetic way to live for the next 30+ years until retirement and it's part of the drive that makes me keep pursuing my dreams. I've always heard that when you do something you love, you won't work a day in your life. And I believe this to a certain point, but I know that not all days are hearts, flowers, unicorns and rainbows as an entrepreneur. There are days that it is work, but hopefully those days are strongly outweighed by the ones that don't feel like it is. :)
I've had a couple of great weekends lately - just spending time back home. Drives a lot of thoughts about fitting in and having my own life back there. I know it will be a tough transition and there will be times I want to say "F*ck it!" and head on back to Des Moines b/c that's the easy way out - but I won't. At the age of 31, I can safely say that I don't take the easy way out for anything that happens in my life. At times, it's totally sucked and pissed me off thinking about how easy it seems for other people to get the things they want in life and I feel like it's not happening for me. But it is, it's just taken me time to realize my path is so much different than others. And it's been occasionally easy, tough more often than not but it's been so worth it. I've learned so much about myself and what I want out of life over the years by going through everything I've been tested on. Much stronger than I ever thought.
As I've recently discovered - my path is ever changing. I gave myself the best gift I ever could last year and had a life coach. I'll tell you all more about that experience tomorrow. After the bike ride back home last weekend, 2 trips equalling 10 hours in a car on Wednesday and Thursday for my uncle's visitation and funeral and then another trip back home this weekend for my cousin's wedding - I'm spent. From Sunday to Sunday I've spent 16 hours in the car and driven all but 5 hours of it. More than enough for awhile but that's what family does and how important they are. Showing someone you care enough to spend time with them when they want or need you most is what being a part of a family is all about.
See you all tomorrow! :)
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