To say it's been more than awhile is an understatement. This is probably the last thing I should be doing on a Saturday morning at the shop when I have a bridal show to get ready for tomorrow and a gift basket to have ready…yesterday. Yet I feel compelled to write about my thoughts and my heart right now.
My life is completely different than it was one year ago today. I'm content and settled in a bit more in my new town and working to get this business going steady. 2014 is going to be a great year for Simply Divine - though it will be constant challenges, lots of work and all the fun stuff in between. I am confident I can make this business THRIVE for years to come, I know that. I am finally - after 11 years post college graduation - in the career I want to be in, working for myself - like I always knew I would. That is a huge source of being content. I'm settled into a smaller town, though I still miss the a lot about the city I was in before but I am happy with where I am. So where does this leave my heart?
My heart is ready to open up to someone. And as per usual Sarah style -I have my sights set on a certain man. Someone who makes my heart want to open up, brings that desire to have a companion I can trust to give my heart to, someone to laugh with, share my day with, someone who will hold my hand and kiss me on the cheek just because, someones arms I can curl into and feel completely 'home'. I'd say it'd be someone to "complete me" but I really don't believe I need someone to complete me (and let's be real - that makes me gag a bit), I am pretty much complete by myself. I just want someone to be there with me, for me and for me to be there completely in return. When I see him, I want to grin like an idiot (but I don't), when we talk (which isn't often) I get jitters inside and when I see him, it makes my day just a bit brighter. He is the first man in a LONG time that flusters me to be around, though I completely try to play it cool. There's a lot of curious glances from both directions so I don't know what to think on his end but I'm completely hopeful that those glances are for the same reason I throw glances his way. We've had our first phone conversations this week - not for the reasons you're thinking but he does now have my number and I have his. (Giddy about this. Completely giddy.) The ice is totally broken, but we both still will likely play it shy. Oh, you want some deets on him? Ok - here you go (yep, grinning). He's 29 (yep, that makes me a bit of a cougar), a farmer - cattle and crops, lives at home still (yes, something I would have judged at one point in time but I am living at home right now so I'll not point fingers), drives a truck (ahhh, one of my favorite things - I could learn to love a Dodge I guess? Depends on the driver!), dark hair, brown eyes, taller than me (YES!), great smile, fun laugh and a casual disposition. I read something on Twitter today that talked about adorable and bottle feeding a calf #calvingseason - tugged at my heart as he's currently in the middle of calving as well. Might be more of a farm girl than I thought. Despite turning my nose up at the shit at the sale barn and the smell. And it hit my desire to buy that pair of Bogs (boots) and be out on the farm getting dirty with him (as I sit here in skinny jeans & flats - I also am ready for leggings, maxi skirts and everything that comes with spring fashion!). Riding in the tractor, combine, truck. Out in the dirt, the mud, the sunsets. All the things you think farm life is and that's just a small part of it's glamour - the rest is hard work, lots of sweat, bugs, flies, smells, etc. And I want it all. That's what my heart wants. Might be a lot to put on one man that doesn't know a thing. Yet.
Oh - and we call him CBB. Let's hope I get the chance someday to tell him how he got that name. :)
